Love comes in all sorts of forms. Either if you love a friend, you love your significant other, you love your family, you love your possessions, you love life, you love your religion and so forth & I want to touch base on the types of love that have affected me.
Friends:
Each one of the people in my life who I can honestly say are my friends, I love. They have affected my life in so many ways. In one instance, Stephanie and Jonnathan. I've known Steph for a couple years and she's one of the only females who I know will never leave me behind. We haven't spent as much time together as we have had for the fact that we are going to school and making something of each other but Steph is one of the most supportive people in the world. I can honestly say I love her with all my heart for the fact that she is the only female in my life -outside of family- who I'm chill and had an on-going friendship with her. With Jonnathan, he's the new-comer, I assume to say, but I've told him before but I do adore Jonnathan. I started talking to him in July (i presume) and there hasn't been a day we haven't talked but he's helped me in some dark times and he's just been there through anything. I love my friends & there are multiple individuals and there are the personal reasons why I love them.
Each one of the people in my life who I can honestly say are my friends, I love. They have affected my life in so many ways. In one instance, Stephanie and Jonnathan. I've known Steph for a couple years and she's one of the only females who I know will never leave me behind. We haven't spent as much time together as we have had for the fact that we are going to school and making something of each other but Steph is one of the most supportive people in the world. I can honestly say I love her with all my heart for the fact that she is the only female in my life -outside of family- who I'm chill and had an on-going friendship with her. With Jonnathan, he's the new-comer, I assume to say, but I've told him before but I do adore Jonnathan. I started talking to him in July (i presume) and there hasn't been a day we haven't talked but he's helped me in some dark times and he's just been there through anything. I love my friends & there are multiple individuals and there are the personal reasons why I love them.
Significant others:
Oh gosh, I've been through a lot of boyfriends and I've been through one fiancé. I've experienced the death of a significant, an engagement, MULTIPLE cheatings, either me cheating or them cheating, I've fell head over heels, multiple times, dated a best friend, been with a couple girls, been with an abusive man and ect. All my previous boys/girls have played a huge affect on how I treat the guy I'm with now. & Speaking of that, the guy I'm with now, we've known each other for 3 years. We've been best friends for that entire time and he knows exactly how I am. I feel that it's important to get to know your significant other before you two decide to try it out. Did I ever have intentions of dating Tre? There were times where I've wanted just to be with him but he wasn't ready and never seen me as his other half; with time, things changed and now we are together. It takes some getting used to. But with that, my love of the other half, comes trust issues. My trust has been shattered and it's hard to even get it back to how it is. (Tre has experienced it, like last night) It's how I am. If you can't trust your other, and believe me, I trust Tre. I trust him with my life. but If you can't trust your other, there's no future for your love. You can't force trust nor love.
Something that has irked me for years is the debate between sex and love. ALL guys I've been with get cut loose if they use the "If you love me, you'd do this, this & that." No, no, no. I don't go for that shit at all. But for the fact that I've been used for sex, I mean lured in, thinking that the person who loves me but only wanted sex, lessens my trust for the next person. The slightest mention of sex has me thinking "oh, they would never want me. They just want my vag." If you keep thinking that then it'll push you away from that person.
I take sex SUPER seriously. I've only had a couple sex partners in my life but with that, due to somethings that have happened, left me with a little one. I don't fuck with sex with other people, when you're with someone. When Tre and I started talking about getting together, he mentioned an "open relationship" which meant for me "yeah, you can fuck somebody else but you belong to me." no, I'm super against that for the fact when I was in school I learned the whole if you have a sex partner, and they have two, and then they have four and pretty much at the end, you've fucked every single person in your graduating class... No. When I'm with somebody, I suspect to give them my all & vice versa. & Not saving my vag for somebody else or them sticking their dick in somebody else. I'm not comfortable with that. So I shot down that suggestion because I can't stand the thought of somebody getting up on my boy even if I can't be with him physically at the moment because I feel it gives them an excuse to cheat; personal opinion.
At the end of the day, I trust Tre, I love Tre.
I trust my friends, I love my friends & so forth.
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